April 18, 2012

But I trust in you, LORD;
I say, “You are my God.”

My times are in your hands;

Psalm 31:14-15a

Thoughts~

Seven years ago I went through the toughest time in my life when my marriage was pulled out from under my feet. My ex was caught up in an addiction that destroyed our relationship and our family. I would have waited forever for him to get healthy, but, he could not and he filed for divorce without fighting for our marriage.  I went through many stages of grief including shock, anger, devastation, sorrow, questioning, denial and many pity parties. I share this today because chances are someone is going through something similar or at least as gut wrenching. And I am here to tell you that God did not ever leave me alone.  My times were in His hands and He took care of me even when I was in a state of numbness. He allowed me to grieve and joined me at the pity parties, encouraging me to stop having them. They were boring, negative and defeating.

What happened along the journey of finding healing is that God taught me that He is trustworthy and will never ever let me down.  No matter what I go through, He is there. And not only that, He has used my pain to bring me closer to Him, stronger spiritually and more available to helping others in the same situation. I have time to give to my ministry and time to do absolutely anything that the Lord has in store for me. I say ‘YES’ to Him before He even asks me. I say to Him “You are my God and I trust in You!”

Action~

What tough thing are you going through right now? Do you truly know that He is there no matter how difficult your situation is? Give it to Him.  Every single thing. Every pain, every sorrow, every bit of anger.  He can handle it all. He is your God and you can trust Him completely.

Because visuals are important to me, I have used journals over the years to record my thoughts and prayers. Yes, handwritten journals! Every once in a while I will read one from start to finish and am truly overwhelmed by the love that the Lord has for me. Maybe you’d like to start something like this, whether in a book form or on your computer.

Pray~

Thank You, God, for your unconditional love and amazing blessings. You take broken lives and restore them, where there were ashes, you bring renewal. You are so amazingly trustworthy all the time.

Trusting the Lord,

Becky