Humble yourselves before the Lord, and He will lift you up.
Today I sort of fought with myself over sharing what has been on my mind again. But because it brings glory to God, I decided I had better . . . plus there is no doubt someone in my readership that will identify with it. It shows one of my flaws and who wants to showcase those? Not me, that’s for sure.
I have a sanguine temperament, outgoing, and love to be around people. I am a first born child, have a lot of friends but no husband anymore. Additionally, I have never feared the spotlight and love speaking to large crowds. I kind of thrive in it, actually. Public speaking revs me up, charges my battery, and brings me into the zone. Where some tremble at the mere thought of public speaking, I see it as an opportunity to talk with no interruptions. J And a way to share my faith so it brings honor to the Lord of my heart.
Back before God wrapped His arms around me tenderly to admonish me, public speaking was sadly about getting attention. I hate to admit that. HATE IT!!!! I hate my internal flaws. I guess none of us like ours though; I would be a little worried if we did.I was not one of those people that hung neon lights around my head to get attention nor was I obnoxious. But deep inside, I was a closet attention seeker. YUCK!
One day I read James 4:10 during my quiet time and God ever so gently pointed out that I needed to set aside this attention thing and give Him the attention instead. That I needed to humble myself and realize I was nothing without the Lord’s gifts. When the Holy Spirit ‘speaks’ to me through His word, I listen and there was a warmth that flooded my heart and I knew that no longer would I speak just for the sake of it . . . but would speak joyfully to bring attention to Jesus.
Sometimes I think when God wants to refine us, and we are ready to be refined, the meeting comes so instantaneous that we don’t try to fight it or try to change His mind or argue about it. That is what happened to me. One day I was speaking to a group of 150 women, working way too hard to get them to laugh or nod at me with my little stories and the next time I spoke I was a changed woman, giving God the attention He deserves.
My life was changed from me-centered to God-centered if the small flip of a Bible page as I was reading James. I still love to speak but, I love it because I can share Jesus with women who are hungry to be loved.
Happily, God’s grace and love is amazing and He has used my flaws for His glory. After all, He did make me outgoing for a purpose. His purpose.
Do you have a flaw that immediately comes to mind? Give it to the Lord to refine it or get rid of it all together so your life brings glory and honor to Him.
Lord, thank you for humbling me and bringing me to the place I knew it was better to give you attention than seek it for myself. I pray I honor you every day of my life.
Trusting in the Lord,Becky